Day 75

          Sometimes dreams really do come true. I got the job in the laboratory I wanted. I am both beyond excited and beyond frightened. This is my future coming true at this very moment, and I do not know how to not explode. What do you do when your dreams come true. Celebrate, of course! But after that, I've achieved one goal...now I must achieve another one. Will the cycle ever end? We all need goals, but to attack them with all we have all the time leaves us weak and unhappy. I want to enjoy my journey to the next level of life.

Lesson:

Enjoy what you have while you work for what you want.

Day 58

          Today we were learning Biotechnology techniques in the lab for my internship. I have never had so much fun. People make a living doing this. I could make a living having fun...scary thought. I love cooking, I love drawing, I love dance, I even love Russian despite my struggles with it. However, none of these were my top career choices. I didn't really ever have a career choice, every choice has been a way for me to bide time until I have a family. This is the first time in my life that a career is what I'm looking for. Yes, I am in love, but I have decided that I will that grow on its own time, so my focus must be elsewhere. And why shouldn't that elsewhere be somewhere I love and enjoy my day. The lab procedures are very strict and yet I have so much fun...I've never had this much fun within the rules. Despite my financial situation, I am quite happy. This is the first time I can say that...in the entirety of my life.

Lesson:

Find you passion, and then live it.

Day 56

          Acts of love are quiet. There is no universal act of love, only something that is meaningful between two people. My finances have been incredibly tight this month, and will be next month. I just found out I won't be getting paid until February 15th for my internship. I live in an expensive apartment, and while I plan on moving, I must wait until my lease is up. The man I mentioned in my post about falling in love gave one act of kindness that meant the world to me. His actions not only allowed me to pay my bills, but his words gave me a peace of mind that I haven't known for a long time. I do not know if he'll ever know how much his actions meant to me, and I am okay with that. It just means that I'm am plotting my revenge (an act of kindness, of course). :) Despite being in the dark, his actions gave me hope. My future with him is unknown, but he has earned himself a place in my heart deeper than I originally though.

Lesson:

Acts of love are the least expected acts of kindness.