Day 130

       I don't know if I'm the only person who has experienced this, but I recently discovered that I have certain likes that I didn't know I had. For example, I really love bees. I had never realized it until I was shopping and couldn't turn down these adorable bee canisters. There are other things too, I've never really cared for yellow, yet I like when it's a pale yellow paired with grey or other pastel colours. I don't think I've ever really taken the time to acknowledge my likes and dislikes. Dislikes are easier, but learning what you like/love can be difficult when you're constantly telling yourself you don't deserve happiness. It makes you not want to commit to anything, because you don't think you deserve happiness, so why would you like anything. It has only been since I've been focusing on my own happiness that I've realized some of the things that I enjoy are right in front of my face, I just couldn't see it through my misery. No more though, I am learning to love what I love.

Lesson:

Enjoy what you love. You deserve it.