Day 110

          We often come up with reasons why we can't do something. There's always something, physical limitations, mental ones, time one, financial ones...it's always something. Yet, there are some people who break their "limitations" everyday. What makes them so different? I want to say it is their willingness to believe. These people are probably just as afraid as you and I, but they continue on anyways. They do this because they believe there is a possibility. They have hope. I'm tired of living within my limits and I'm ready to break though and live life. I have to stop telling myself I can't, and start telling myself I can. I can't afford a cello, I can't do ballet anymore, I don't have time to work out...I'm changing all of these. I know I will slip up from time to time, but I believe I can have a better life.

Lesson:

Believe in hope.

Day 64

          I feel like all I do these days is work and sleep. That I have lost all sense of who I am. That I have lost all sense of purpose. Yet, I feel like the old saying is true. It is always darkest before the dawn. I plan to live a full and happy life, so this is only the darkness before the dawn. I feel like if I have faith and continue forward that I will soon leave this darkness behind. I don't really know where I got this hope from...do all people have it? Is it just a select few? Who are we that we never lose hope. I have been discouraged several times, but I have never given up hop. I have always found a way to move forward, even when life has brought me to my knees. What is it that gives me hope? Or is it hope at all? What if it is sheer stubbornness ..I wouldn't put it past me. Either way, I must continue.

Lesson:

It doesn't really matter why you continue, just as long as you do.