Day 13

          Perfectionism is the root of all (okay, most) emotional pain. It is for the lack of perfection that we suffer. So, in order to avoid suffering, we must let go of our ideas of what, who, and how something is perfect. My example is running errands. I have to go here to get my car inspected, here to get my tires rotated and balanced, call here to schedule an appointment, go here to enroll, go here to register my car. Not to mention get homework and VA paperwork filled out. All of this causes me anxiety, but I never really wondered why. But now I know. I am afraid I will do something wrong, that I'll be ill-prepared, that things won't go as I have planned ..as perfectly as I have planned. Rarely do they not, but I am racked with anxiety any time I have to run similar errands or fill out paperwork. Today's step was running all those errands I have feared. I feels as though the more I procrastinate the worse things seem in my mind, when really whatever it is that I'm avoiding it quite inconsequential.
          I did get everything done, and there was a slight hiccup, but disaster was avoided. So, all my worrying was for nothing. And that just proves my point.


Lesson:
Let go of your perfectionism, and do what you fear most.