Day 4

           I was still anxious about the people I deleted. Would they call or try to add me again? I didn't want a confrontation. Then, I realized that's the only reason I had let them stick around in the first place. Fear. I cannot live in love and trust if I'm always afraid. And I still care about them, I just care about me more.
          So, today's step was going to be clearing out my closet. However, I am in a lot of pain as I worked a double today. Alas, I resigned myself to reading a book. French Women Don't Sleep Alone to be exact. I bought the book several years ago, read it and applied some of it, and forgot it. It did seem, to jump off my bookshelf though. So, it was time to drink a beer and get reading.  As I read, I came to the realization that it was really talking about loving yourself and sticking by it. Plus, have the self respect to wait for someone who is willing to treat you properly instead of like trash.

Lesson:

Even if you can't do what is planned, doesn't mean that you can't move towards your goal.

Update:
I slept better that night. The more positive I become, the better I sleep. You should try it sometime.