Day 15

           I find myself drawn to everyday peacocking. You know, when you feel the need to one up the person you're talking to. I've realized it comes from my own insecurities. I feel like I need to prove myself in order to be noticed. I hate feeling invisible. I don't want to disappear, and that is what I must face. I have to get to the point of quiet confidence, the one where the quietest person in the room is the most interesting, and that person is me. The only way I can think of achieving this is by living it. With my jobs and school I can't take a bow of silence. I can, however, aim to speak only when necessary.  Any one who knows me, knows this will be practically impossible, so it will take practice and a lot of time. So, each day, I will try my best to hold my tongue and speak only of the important things things. I think small talk is an important skill, but there is a difference between small talk and talking just to talk...the latter of which I do quite often.

Lesson:

Confidence is not screaming at the top of your lungs to get attention, it is quiet and self assured.