My life has been a blur recently. I'm not living up to my own expectations. I think I'm done with expectations. It's good to have hopes and dreams, but I expect far too much of myself. I have done incredible things in my life time. I'm not a super hero or a demigod. I am, however, full of magic and mystery. I think our society's obsession with perfection, and super heroes with inhuman powers all stem from the same feelings of inadequacy, nothing more. We are beautiful just the way we are, in every aspect that we are. Those feelings of inadequacy form darkness within us where there was originally none. Look at our school system, we test memorization, not application. Students can cheat in school, but you cannot really cheat in real life; you can Google just about anything you don't know and your employer likes that you take initiative to learn something you didn't originally There is something terribly wrong with our school systems and it is a reflection of what is wrong with our society.
I am taking back my expectations. I refuse to live my life in accordance with others. I have a good heart, and when there isn't any pressure to be perfect, I flourish. So, why should I constantly suffer through feelings of inadequacy because I'm an not what others want? I will decide what I want, what is best for me, and how the hell to live my life. Anything else would be makings of unhappiness.
Lesson:
Do not live your life in accordance with others' expectations.
